Well yesterday was a doozy!
As soon as I posted my blog about being a slave to your flesh, I was so
excited... and an hour later a spirit of heaviness just seemed to be on me.
I tried to shake it, sang praise songs, and even then I just burst into tears.
I later went in to cook dinner, feelin a little better, and Haley came home
and was so excited to be telling me about a college in RHODE ISLAND !!!
She would like to check it out and I was so happy for her, and then I
started thinking of her being far away, and John, my son, is far away,
my granddaughter is far away, Jennifer is far away, and soon Haley will
go too.. and I just lost it... tears just took over, and I made sure that
Haley didn't see me, because the last thing I want is for her to feel like
she shouldn't move away to pursue her dreams.
As soon as Rick came home .. he saw me, and asked what's wrong,
and I couldn't even get the words out, I just buried my head in his chest and
sobbed. Then I told him, and of course he thinks it will be great when the
kids are gone.... and so I said.. "what I'm tellin you for.. you don't understand."
With that he hugged me, and reassured me, and even made some jokes.
I felt better after that, and we all had a great time listening to the girls day,
and some jokes were said.. and darn.. I'm gonna miss this time with them.
I got up refreshed in spirit, and ready to tackle the day.
My flesh wants to go back to sleep... but so far it hasn't won.
God is so good. I love him dearly. I wonder if he has empty nest syndrome? lol.
Does it pain him to not have all his children there? I think his heart longs for the
day we are all home.
I'm homeward bound... lookin to the heavens ... for my redeemer is coming..
Who will I reach to come home with me? I hope many.
